baby makers

I just wanted to go out of my way
and say that I loathe how some people
can get pregnant without even trying,
while my husband and I are standing here
like "...what's wrong with usssss?"



So I might not have a great day today,
what with realizing it might never happen,
but here's a cute baby picture that made me smile:

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one word:

WANT

awkward

The most awkward moment in life:

when your coupon-clipping mother-in-law

gives your husband six coupons

for a dollar off of Trojan products

(ie. condoms)

while you're trying to get pregnant...

In other news,

today is my day off

so I'll be spending it crocheting,

reading / visiting the library,

and hoping it goes by super slowly.

the world, as I see it.

every time I wish on a star for a baby, the world around me spins,

and a flashing sign comes out of nowhere that looks a bit like this:

NO BABIES, EVERRRRRR!

and it makes me uber sad.

just a few things.

If one more of the blogs I follow

announces they're pregnant,

I will literally cry.

I know, I know,

I shouldn't be jealous because

it's wonderful to hear about,

and I should be happy for them.

But seeing others announce a pregnancy

simply reminds me that

we are trying to make a baby,

and failing.

In better news,

Zooey Deschanel will be

on FOX this Fall in a new show.

I will be watching it religiously.

That is, if the world doesn't end tonight at 6pm.

Explode my Heart with Love

Dearest Future Baby(ies);

You aren't physically concieved just yet,

but I've been concieving the thought of you a lot lately,

and I think I'm ready to say

quite loudly,

that your future mama & daddy are trying for you.

And I hope all our trying pays off eventually.

Oh how I love to think of you

and who you'll look like,

and act like, and what you'll love,

and your favorite color.

In my mind, you are a tiny little blonde,

with my eyes and my sense of adventure,

and your daddy's brain,

which can only be swayyed

when his heart is

 exploded 

with love

(which is a great reason to not think with your brain,

but with your heart).

The kind of life and love we want to share with you

is terrifyingly and exhaustingly lovely.

I want to be your best friend and your mama.

He wants to be your greatest teacher and your daddy.

We want you in our lives, so please,

please,

don't break my heart, unless it's with an

explosion

of love.

xo.

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