to be happy with my current state -
to try not to look ahead
and long for that moment,
that amazing moment
when our lives are on a path -
any path, going any direction.
I try not to think about
all the things going wrong,
and I try to focus on the good,
when nothing makes sense,
and there's so much fear in my heart,
but I'm trying not to hold onto it.
I'm trying to let it go,
and let myself bask in the now,
the current season of my life.