March

Officially my favorite month.

Not only is it National Crochet month

(and we all know why I love that)

but it's also Self Injury Awareness month.

I don't like to talk about it much

because it's a sore subject for me,

but I've struggled with self-injury

for a little over seven years.

It's been a tug-of-war most days,

but I've been winning for a little over three years

 because my husband has shown me

that there is so much to be grateful for

and to love in this life.

Even when it feels like everything's falling apart

and everyone's against me, I have him to give me a reason

to love myself and the world around me,

regardless of the past and any evidence I've brought with me.

So this month, I am going to focus on the things

that make me happy, and thankful to be alive.

Like the sun peeking in the window,

warming my kitten's belly.

And hopefully, by the end of this month,

I'll be able to tell my husband he's right,

that I have nothing to be afraid of in this world

as long as he's beside me,

telling me,

showing me,

I'm everything beautiful.